I’ve got the Blues

Swimming in the deep
With a hole in my heart
I fail to breathe
I don’t know where to start

Specks of blood float around
Like memories of the past
Confined by hopelessness
I don’t know for how long this will last

Descending into the depths
Like God’s own anchor
Looking straight into Death’s unflinching eyes
I might just thank her
Oh, I might

Seems like my time is done
I’m dazed by all my thinking
Looking back at all the battles I’ve won
This time, I think I might be sinking
Oh, I might

The ways of the world drove me round the bend
But why, oh why don’t I want this to end?
I can hear the bells chime
I think its time
Oh yes, its time

 

 

 

Room

Surrounded by these walls
These grey, soulless walls
Encumbered forever
By my thoughts and ambitions
Cornered in the dark
By my tired decisions
The myriad small rodents and parasites
Out for my flesh
As I tip-toe across the floor
To escape these insects
Hushed voices in the night
As I tremble in my arms
And clench my eyes shut
The wobbling closet in my mind
Convulsing and shivering,
Frees my inner demons
Out in the open
Panic sets inside the four walls of my sanity
These abused, collapsing walls
Of this never ending room.

There is no escape.

 

 

Ecstasy

Wake up
It’s time to start the day
Living in a daydream
Immune to everything that comes my way
Memories
Of a land far away
Looking forward to the past
Why shouldn’t I enjoy it while it lasts?

As I float away
In a spectrum of cosmic space
I can see diamonds on the Sun
With gravity on the run
Stars shine throughout the endless light
And as I revel in the beauty
I fall
Why does time fly so fast?

Back down on the Earth
There are cold embers in the hearth
I seek warmth in my flesh
Devoid of all happiness
Sinking into the dark, hollow depths
Of  my mind
Goodnight.