Obsession

No control on my mind
The countless thoughts
It winds
One after the other
From dawn to supper
From supper to dawn
And on and on and on,
There’s no stopping
I can feel the throbbing
This obsession is crazy
It has total control, NO!
It’s like a monster
That’s eating up my brain
I try to resist but all in vain,
The only option I see
Is to let it wander
Break the chain
And set my mind free.

Artist

A thousands words to say
Not a soul to hear
All the times they betrayed
All the grudges he bears.

The dim smile he gave
The empty words of his prayers
He knows one thing for sure
That life isn’t fair.

It’s a full circle
No matter where you start
A fall in the middle
Or breakdown at 2πr.

The road is ordinary
But the man, he’s not
Say what you wanna say
But one day he’ll be
Above you all.

I’ve got the Blues

Swimming in the deep
With a hole in my heart
I fail to breathe
I don’t know where to start

Specks of blood float around
Like memories of the past
Confined by hopelessness
I don’t know for how long this will last

Descending into the depths
Like God’s own anchor
Looking straight into Death’s unflinching eyes
I might just thank her
Oh, I might

Seems like my time is done
I’m dazed by all my thinking
Looking back at all the battles I’ve won
This time, I think I might be sinking
Oh, I might

The ways of the world drove me round the bend
But why, oh why don’t I want this to end?
I can hear the bells chime
I think its time
Oh yes, its time

 

 

 

Room

Surrounded by these walls
These grey, soulless walls
Encumbered forever
By my thoughts and ambitions
Cornered in the dark
By my tired decisions
The myriad small rodents and parasites
Out for my flesh
As I tip-toe across the floor
To escape these insects
Hushed voices in the night
As I tremble in my arms
And clench my eyes shut
The wobbling closet in my mind
Convulsing and shivering,
Frees my inner demons
Out in the open
Panic sets inside the four walls of my sanity
These abused, collapsing walls
Of this never ending room.

There is no escape.

 

 

Ecstasy

Wake up
It’s time to start the day
Living in a daydream
Immune to everything that comes my way
Memories
Of a land far away
Looking forward to the past
Why shouldn’t I enjoy it while it lasts?

As I float away
In a spectrum of cosmic space
I can see diamonds on the Sun
With gravity on the run
Stars shine throughout the endless light
And as I revel in the beauty
I fall
Why does time fly so fast?

Back down on the Earth
There are cold embers in the hearth
I seek warmth in my flesh
Devoid of all happiness
Sinking into the dark, hollow depths
Of  my mind
Goodnight.

Time for Introspection

Why am I such a piece of shit?
Why am I so naive?
Why am I so ignorant?
Maybe it’s time,
The fucking man inside me
It’s long been dying,
When you’ve always thought
Yourself to be the best
The greatest, never bluffed
And then you get a glimpse
Of reality
The revival is damn tough,
Maybe I’m not perfect
But at least I tried
Now the walls are moving to crush me
But I know it’s time.
Time for introspection.

Hey Dad

Hey Dad,
You do not understand
But I want to cry on your lap
I need someone to pat me on the back
Someone to show me the right path!
You always told me never to crack
Always taught me to fight back
But why did that teacher got pissed
When I landed a punch on that big kid
I realize that I barely missed
His nose, but it wasn’t my fault
Anyway
I hope you can read this
I have been dying to talk to you
I miss you,
I want to thank you, for everything
From pushing me flat on the ground
To lending me your hand
As bit by bit you made me a man,
When will you come back?
Please tell me when!
Your cub lies hungry
In your very own den.

Another One Bites the Dust

I’ve waited a long time for this
but now you’re finally here, miss
you caught my eye
since then, it’s been a while
you’re in my insipid dreams
where demons lie
just wait for me dear
there’s nothing to fear
because now I’ve got my chance
to take you to the dance
you’ll look flawless dressed in white
I’ll shine my shoes bright
we’ll count the stars in the night
and prance around under moonlight
then we’ll have the dance…
of death

P.S. I know, obvious inspiration for the title from Queen. Sue me.

Oblivion

can you
define reality
and prove that it exists
or will we
forever be resigned
to live like slaves upon a hill
day after day
our backs bare under the Sun
as we dig into the Earth
to unspool its web of secrets
we get tangled all the more
the world never makes sense
unless we force it to

we talk and talk
of freedom and independence
we are never free
and never will be
we are the slaves of the world
at its mercy and command
we will never be free